New Year- New Me

So it is 2013, a new year, a new beginning. It is where people start with resolutions for the new year, and for the most part, stop trying by the second or third week. Like many people, I made resolutions. Now that it is the third week of the new year, I think it is time for me to start those resolutions. I know it is late, but it is better to be late than to never start or start and fizzle out before the first week is over. 

The new year brings for us some big changes, new beginnings. The first one is that we have traded our boat. Yes it is sad not to have a boat, but it was just too small for our growing family. My husband got me a lovely ring that eventually we will be making our own. He got a Charles Daily over/under 12 gauge shotgun. He is adding on to our gun collection. Second is that the Passat will hopefully be traded on Tuesday. We will be trading for a 16ft. enclosed trailer. That will come in handy for the next big change, new beginning. We are moving to Texas. While I am not looking forward to more packing/unpacking, I am looking forward to being where I know that we will be welcomed. PLUS it is the state I was born in and proud to be from. I can honestly say that I am looking forward to being back in my home state. 

Since the school shooting in Connecticut, I have been worried about my children. The Monday after the shooting, Christian had a play at school. Every person that was there had to go through the front doors, sign in, and be escorted through the school. I loved that. Made me feel a little more comfortable sending them to school. Christian was a shepherd. Yes you read that right. They had a Christmas program that included the Nativity, and songs about Jesus. YES this is a PUBLIC school. That is one of the things I love about this school. They are not afraid to show their love for Jesus. But since the shooting security at the school has stepped up with more cameras and such. With the president saying he wants more gun control has us worried. He is repeating history all over again. Hitler, Castro just to name a couple took the civilians guns away. What is his motive behind all of this? Many people can speculate, debate however much they please, but the one thing that sticks in my mind is that the 2nd amendment is there for everyone, not just the people who are protecting those that are in office or their families. What about my family? Am I allowed to protect my family? You bet I am. I will til the day I die. My boys are my miracles, no gun toting criminal will take them away from me. I do believe that people need to be taught gun safety and such, but not take away guns. My greatest fear is that we are seeing the end of America. The end of what our forefathers fought and died for. I am afraid that we are going to have another civil war on our hands, and unless the necessary measurements are taken, many of loyal Americans(loyal to our flag, Constitution) are going to die trying to protect the same rights that we grew up with for their sons and daughters.

As a Christian, this bothers me. For the simple fact of making sure that my family and myself are ready, that we have done everything we can to prove that we are the few that will enter the gates of heaven. I am far from perfect, I really am. That is one of my resolutions. To become a better Christian. Meaning, fasting, praying, reading the Bible, and living the way the Bible says to. 

I tend to over analyze things, have anxiety over things that I have no control over. I think of all the what ifs. That is who I am, or at least who I have become. I am hoping to have less stress in my life, and these things are things I can't help, BUT I can pray about them. Bring them to God, busy myself in what is necessary, my family. For this reason, I decided before the new year that I would cut off all contact with my biological family. I was tired of being the one making all the contact, the one that was always caught in the middle. I decided for the safety of the minds of my children and mine as well, that it is better to cut all ties to those who say they love me, and blood is thicker than anything else. My adoptive family has been more family than they have ever been. I love all of my family even when I was estranged from them. It just took me longer to realize that they actually loved me, and that they cared for this broken girl. It is because of them I am who I have become. Yes I am far from perfect, but I owe it to them for putting the basics into to my head and heart. 

Another resolution for me is to get healthier, to get my PCOS under control, to actually lose the extra weight. I have been reading a book that was recommended by a friend for PCOS patients. Hopefully, with what I am learning and some help from professionals, I will be on the right track soon. My last resort that I am thinking of is one of the types of gastric bypass that has worked for other PCOS patients. Right now, I have to get this under control so I can be around for my family. The only drawback right now is my foot is still in the walking cast. I have a MRI tomorrow, and a follow up appointment this week as well. Hopefully, this Dr. will figure out what is going on. Then I can get to my goal of running in some type of marathon later this year. 

New years brings New resolutions, I believe that, but how many people will actually follow through with those? I believe that one of the few is going to be me. I believe in change for the better. I BELIEVE!!!!!


-Shelly 

A little about me

November 18, 2012

I don't know who all will see this, but this may be just the right out let for me to get away, share my thoughts, ideas, or even pictures. For those who don't know me let me tell you a little about myself. My name is Rashelle. I was adopted when I was 14 years old by the best people ever. I am proud to call them Mom and Dad. They have been there at my bad times as well as my good. I do know my biological family, but like most who do, I have my questions, concerns, call them whatever who feel like. My husband and I met when I was 16 and he was 21. To make a long story short, I moved away in 2003 to live with my biological mother. We finally decided to give it another chance in 2007 after our oldest son had just turned 2. We decided to try for one more child, even though we were told that it would be nearly impossible for me to have another child due to me having PCOS. What is PCOS you may ask? It is Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Many women have, but don't know it until after having a child. In a nutshell, because I want to do a post just on that, is I produce my own insulin, but when it comes to the complex sugars, I can't break them down. Thus, causing all the symptoms for PCOS. Well, after 2 and 1/2 months we were pregnant. We got married that August. Right after we got married, we found out that we were having twins. I guess that is what we get when we both pray for a baby.  We had our twins in January a week earlier than we had planned due to what is called Twin to twin transfusion syndrome, which can only happen in identical twins or monozygotic twins. My husband and I have had our hard times and our good, but wouldn't trade it for the world. We just recently celebrated our 5th anniversary. I have decided since our twins are now in Preschool, I can pursue my dreams of being in the medical field, namely a RN. I love helping people, and feel that this is the best place for my abilities to be used. I will update as soon as I can. I hope this brings a little more light into my life.